“Follow your inner moonlight; don’t hide the madness.” — Allen Ginsberg
Do you follow Ginsberg’s advice — in your writing and/or in your everyday life?
I feel like I have to always maintain a level of control over my howling. I try to channel it through my creativity, my writing especially. But I am my censor. I think I let it out more in person. Where there isn’t as much of a record of just how mad I can be. Why is this? The fear of scrutiny? The sense that I am going to come under watch, have to explain myself to some higher power at some point? That I will be accountable for who I am? Mostly.
But I can promise you that sometimes I forget or can’t keep her in. Sometimes the howls come out. Probably because I am not someone who thinks before she speaks. I am certainly an actor first, thoughts come later. Oh and they come. They plague me, until I need to howl again. Unless I am taken to dancing first.